I'm SO MAD!

Seriously, I am my own worst enemy.

I have been stressed lately about some health issues that are probably nothing but I worry about everything so it makes me stressed...and add to it that I am switching jobs and I am trying to close out my work all while trying to act interested in my new job but not being obligated to it for another 2 weeks...yet I feel guilty if I don't respond to the emails...or read the procedures being sent...so my world is all over the place right now...

And I was having a perfect diet day and I screwed it up.  I drank a beer.

Seriously, I was SO SO SO on top of this a few months ago and it's like I am a kid being told "don't touch it!" so I touch it.  I can't get control of myself.  And part of it is my own fault--I'm buying the stuff that's in the house.  My husband eats/drinks these things and they're here.  

Do I get a reward for not breaking into the Peanut Butter Kandy Kakes?  No, I don't...I should though.  Like, maybe if there were a reward system for not eating the bad things (Oh STOP I know what you're thinking--there is one Annie, it's called WEIGHTLOSS!) yea no I mean like "Oh hey you didn't eat the TastyKakes, go buy new shoes....hey good job on passing up the ice cream--that was tough and deserves a new cardi with some jewelry accessories..."

I had a chocolate shake for breakfast, a salad with cucumbers, peppers, broccoli and a little bit of chopped tomato and onion.  And I had about a half a cup of sauteed yellow and green squash.  Mid afternoon I had my IP snack...went to PT, did my 10 minute walk and 30 minutes of exercises and 20 minutes of stretching, came home, started grilling my grilled chicken, sliced up a tomato, made some broccoli and saw the fresh salsa in the fridge and that was it...I had a chip as a carrier...(BAD!) and then the beer...ugh!  I am so mad! And normally I would go for a run and feel  better mentally and feel like maybe I burned off the chip and I can't even do that. 

All is not lost.  Tomorrow is another day.  Now to stay straight on my path for the rest of the night.