I really want to lose 4lbs...

If you're keeping track of my progress of how much weight I've lost since last year, I'm 4lbs away from 50lbs lost.  I was as close as 49lbs lost a few months ago and then the summer hours started.  I'm really annoyed.  FOUR pounds!  That's all.  And I'd like to do that 3 times.  But first, 4lbs to reach my goal of 50lbs.

I am still in a lot of pain.  I have been trying to make smart decisions about what I eat while trying to recover but I will admit that I have done some dumb things this week--like french fries--wait...not just french fries but waffle fries.  I love waffle fries.

And there might have been a little dish of Ben & Jerry's Frozen yogurt...

All in the name of feeling better.

Anyway, like I said, I've been trying to stay focused on getting better and eating better.  It's annoying--this whole not being able to move, bend, stretch, sit, stand and walk the way I'd like to...and I am really struggling with not being able to put my daughter to bed--because I can't lower her into the crib and kiss her good night like I usually do and because I can't even hold her for very long, which makes our nightly routine of reading and singing songs very difficult and therefore not possible.

I'm hoping she hasn't noticed.

So...yea.  4lbs.  I would like to lose 4lbs by the end of August.