More Than a Feelin'....
So today I wore the jeans I talked about in my post from February 2, 2013--Giddy.
They fit even better than they did that day! Even after I washed them! I mean, HELLO! I used to have to lay on the bed and do acrobatics to get my jeans to stretch before I could wear them again! I think I might have to put these in the dryer before wearing them again just to snap them back into place since they stretched after wearing them all day! I haven't done that since 2005!!
With the jeans, I wore a long cardigan sweater and a black top...and honestly there were a few times when I thought about removing my sweater (which hides how much weight I've actually lost) and walking around in just my black shirt and jeans because I wanted to see my reflection. I cannot tell you how long it has been since I wanted to see myself in a mirror. I think I've spent the last 6-7 years trying to avoid looking in places I didn't want to just to avoid having to admit that not only was the scale number getting bigger but so was I...
It's a beautiful thing...finding myself under the layers...like taking off my emotional sweater...I want to be me and show ME off again. Those who have known me before my weight gain aren't surprised at how happy and outgoing I feel...or they don't think it is weird that I'm walking down the hallway with a perma-grin--I don't even know why...I just can't stop smiling!! The friends who have only known me for a short time are finally seeing ME.
When I started this journey I didn't realize that it was going to be so much more than weight loss. I knew I would be happy but...this is really more than a physical thing.
Weigh in tomorrow! Feeling like I might have lost the pound I gained last week, plus a little more. Honestly hoping to make 20lbs but...eh. I'll be ok if I don't!
They fit even better than they did that day! Even after I washed them! I mean, HELLO! I used to have to lay on the bed and do acrobatics to get my jeans to stretch before I could wear them again! I think I might have to put these in the dryer before wearing them again just to snap them back into place since they stretched after wearing them all day! I haven't done that since 2005!!
With the jeans, I wore a long cardigan sweater and a black top...and honestly there were a few times when I thought about removing my sweater (which hides how much weight I've actually lost) and walking around in just my black shirt and jeans because I wanted to see my reflection. I cannot tell you how long it has been since I wanted to see myself in a mirror. I think I've spent the last 6-7 years trying to avoid looking in places I didn't want to just to avoid having to admit that not only was the scale number getting bigger but so was I...
It's a beautiful thing...finding myself under the layers...like taking off my emotional sweater...I want to be me and show ME off again. Those who have known me before my weight gain aren't surprised at how happy and outgoing I feel...or they don't think it is weird that I'm walking down the hallway with a perma-grin--I don't even know why...I just can't stop smiling!! The friends who have only known me for a short time are finally seeing ME.
When I started this journey I didn't realize that it was going to be so much more than weight loss. I knew I would be happy but...this is really more than a physical thing.
Weigh in tomorrow! Feeling like I might have lost the pound I gained last week, plus a little more. Honestly hoping to make 20lbs but...eh. I'll be ok if I don't!
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