Surviving, Fortunes and I Want Chocolate (AKA My Weekend)

So this was a busy weekend.  There was a lot going on and I knew I was going to be tested  three times this weekend...

On Friday we ordered out.  It was cold, we were tired.  I ordered a chicken steak wrap and dumped it on lettuce.  It was very satisfying and curbed the cheese steak craving.

We went out to lunch yesterday after our family picture.  Ruby Tuesdays.  Our photo session was at 1pm.  Lunch to follow.  I planned ahead and had a salad around 11:30 and some celery as I was getting ready.  I had a Vanilla Peanut Butter bar on the way to our photo session and I had blackened tilapia with broccoli and cauliflower at Ruby Tuesdays.  It was 4pm when we finished.  For dinner, I kept it light--had some spinach to make up for the remaining cup of veggies I needed for the day.

And this morning we met my father-in-law for brunch for his birthday.  I knew ahead of time that I was only going to be able to have the "made to order" omelets.  I ordered my decaf coffee.  I prepared a plate for the baby who apparently decided she did not want to be separated from me this morning.  By the time I got up to the omelet guy he had gone back to the kitchen.  When he came out I ordered my veggie omelet and he had just added them to the pant when someone else brought him out a container and he said "Oh great, more egg whites?"  egg whites?  Wait, what?  "Can I have egg whites instead?" I hear myself say.  Sweet.  

I came home, satisfied with my breakfast and so relieved that I didn't have to count eggs and figure out remaining protein allowances for dinner.  What a relief!  I had a Cranberry, Pomegranate, Blueberry shake just to make sure I had enough to sustain me until lunch later.  

Things are moving smoothly for me.  Of course, it is the weekend and I always find that things are a lot better for me on the weekends  As of this morning,  I am down 3lbs on my scale since Thursday morning.  I have officially made it below my lowest 2009 weight.  I am now in 2007 weight territory.

Aaand, (doing a little dance here), I was laying on the bed this afternoon, stretched out.   The "best husband ever" came in and saw me laying here...he touched my stomach and said "wait...are you sucking it in?"

No.

"Oh! Wow!!

Yea, that's right...when I lay down, my abdominal area sinks lower than my ribs.  Now don't think I've got flat abs...because as soon as I lifted my head to look, the muscles contracted and the baby belly puffed out and when I looked there was a floppy belly between my ribs and hips.  But when I lay down "awww yea, baby...mama looks (or feels because I can't see it) like she doesn't have a floppy belly.  (It was baby sagging off to the sides but kudos to him for boosting my self esteem.)

So  in the end I survived the temptations this weekend and it really wasn't as hard as I thought it would be...except one little thing...

I currently want to eat cookies and candy and cake and waffles.  The smell of the waffles at brunch this morning was so incredibly overwhelming that I wasn't sure I was going to survive the brunch.  And I have spent the last 2-3 hours resisting the urge to eat something I shouldn't and I almost lost the battle.

Usually on the weekends, or when I get this way, I make myself a cup of coffee.  I am usually craving the sweets because they were my go to food when I was tired.  I would come home from work and eat something sweet to give me the energy I needed to get through making dinner and playing with the baby...I would have something sweet around 3pm every day because that was when I would hit a wall and couldn't concentrate anymore...my body is programmed to crave a peanut butter cup when I'm tired.  

Anyway, I loaded up the Keurig and noticed a fortune cookie on the counter--it was mine from my mother-in-law's birthday, which coincidentally is New Years Day, and it said "The current year will bring you much happiness."

I smiled.  I started 2013 in a funk.  I started the diet on January 11, 2013 and told my co-worker that 2013 was going to be my year.  I was going to do great things.  Maybe get a new job (because I was interviewing for one in the department at the time), lose weight...the possibilities were going to be limitless in 2013.  

Well, here I am...down 32lbs since May and at least 25 since the beginning of 2013...I didn't get that job but as soon as I found out that I didn't get it, another opportunity came to light.  My 2012 performance review wasn't so great but my boss has provided me feedback for 2013 and he is impressed and happy with my performance for 2013 thus far...

Sometimes life leaves little clues that we're on the right track...this one will be hanging on my fridge for another 296 days.